How did you get here?

I thought it might be nice to have a little background. The hubby and I have been married for a little over a year now, we tied the knot in June of 2008. I wanted to start trying on the honeymoon but was convinced to wait until August- why August, no idea but it made the hubby feel better so we waited 2 months. We have officially been trying for a year and now I am a not so proud member of the IF club. I have had my hormone levels checked- everything looks great the doctor said. My hubby had a SA- everything looks normal the doctor said. I am now on my third month of clomid- it is not a miracle drug the doctor said. I really am sick of my doctor.
I have to admit that I have had the list of IF specialists for about a week now and am terrified to call and set up an appointment. I don't know what I am scared of but maybe that is it- I am scared of the unknown process we are on. I know it is not easy to be diagnosed as having PCOS or Endo but at least you know then what you are up against. For the past year every time I go in to see my doctor I get the same- "Oh I was hoping this was the month you were pregnant"- don't we all!!! She can't find anything wrong with me. I was trying to get in and have a hsg and found out we have to pay out of pocket for it. No way can we afford that right now. Pity party for me. Hoping for a brighter weekend- the SIL is getting married on Saturday and there will be massive amounts of Italian relatives to visit with. Love, hugs and hope!
P.S. Should ovulate this weekend lets hope the excitement of the wedding makes a baby!