Why can't my plan and God's plan align?

M.I.A. and Preggo!

2009-12-04T08:09:00.000-08:00

I am so excited to share that the IUI was a success! I am now 12 weeks along and am so excited. I am reminded everyday of what a blessing this is and am grateful to God for this joy. I am still hoping and praying for all you ladies out there still anticipating your miracle.

In the 2WW

2009-09-30T14:49:00.000-07:00

So I had my IUI last Thursday. All went well- the hubby's swimmers were a force to be reckoned with. He had a count of 196 million. I hope one of those guys found a mate! I gave my two week notice on Monday after I got a job offer Friday. I had the interview that morning and by that afternoon the position was mine. I am hoping that with this new job comes a pregnancy- all I needed was a change of scenery- right?? Anyway am hopeful that this worked and all is well. Wishing babies in our future!

IUI scheduled

2009-09-22T13:25:00.000-07:00

So a little update... I went for my ultrasound on Monday and I have 1 follicle on my left side and 3 on my right. The fibroid that is on my left has grown in size and is now 3.5 mm. They are not concerned and everything looks good for my insemination on Thursday. I have to take a shot tonight to make myself ovulate because the one follicle on my left side is already pretty big (24) and they don't want any over 25. I am getting really nervous. I am trying to put my faith in God and not get to wound up about it. I just want a baby so badly.
Please prayers on Thursday ladies.
Hugs and prayers for your babies.

I heart my RE!!!

2009-09-11T14:47:00.000-07:00

I had my first appointment last Friday. She is an amazing women who has already set us up to have our first IUI this month! I am so excited to have a game plan. She said everything looked great in my file transferred from my OBGYN but wanted to run a couple blood tests to double check a few things.
The results are in:
-No thyroid problems
-Not a carrier for cystic fibrosis
-O+ blood type (I had no idea what is was so they checked)
-My prolactine level came back a little high so I have to have my blood checked again tomorrow.
I have my clomid ready which is now 100mg instead of the 50mg I was taking for the last three months. I start clomid tomorrow and am hopeful for double lines this month! I keep telling the hubby that the reason we have to wait so long for a baby is because we are getting twins! I would love that. I just get so afraid that it will take us forever to get pregnant and when we do we won't be able to have another. I feel so foolish complaining about thinking I will only have one baby considering that hasn't happened yet. I know God is just so excited to give us our miracle but something keeps distracting Him from pulling the trigger.
Here's to NO DISTRACTIONS this month!
Love, prayers and hope- I know our babies and your babies are coming, we will wait together!

Trying this out!

2009-09-11T14:37:00.000-07:00

I saw this on prayingforourlittlemiracle.blogspot.com and thought it looked like fun! Here goes:The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me, especially for you! I really need a distraction right now as I am sure some of your ladies out there can relate.

The offer does have some restrictions and limitations:
1- I make no guarantees that you will like what I make but I hope you will.
2- What I create will be just for you.
3- Apparently I have a year to get it to you, but hopefully it won't take that long!
4- You have no clue what it's going to be. It’s a surprise to both of us at this point.
The catch? You must re-post this on your blog and offer the same to the first 5 people who do the same on your blog.So the first five people who comment, and are willing to pass it along, will get a handmade gift in the mail from me. When you get it, make sure you post a pic on your blog! Let's have some fun!

I did it!

2009-08-24T10:31:00.000-07:00

I made the call today and have my first appointment with my RE on Friday August 4th. I have to say I was super surprised they got me in so fast- I hope that doesn't mean this place is awful. My OBGYN did recommend them so they can't be to bad. I am really nervous. Anybody out there that can tell me what to expect this first appointment?
I am just ready to brew this baby and get the show on the road.
Love, hugs and prayers!

How did you get here?

2009-08-18T15:06:00.000-07:00

I thought it might be nice to have a little background. The hubby and I have been married for a little over a year now, we tied the knot in June of 2008. I wanted to start trying on the honeymoon but was convinced to wait until August- why August, no idea but it made the hubby feel better so we waited 2 months. We have officially been trying for a year and now I am a not so proud member of the IF club. I have had my hormone levels checked- everything looks great the doctor said. My hubby had a SA- everything looks normal the doctor said. I am now on my third month of clomid- it is not a miracle drug the doctor said. I really am sick of my doctor.
I have to admit that I have had the list of IF specialists for about a week now and am terrified to call and set up an appointment. I don't know what I am scared of but maybe that is it- I am scared of the unknown process we are on. I know it is not easy to be diagnosed as having PCOS or Endo but at least you know then what you are up against. For the past year every time I go in to see my doctor I get the same- "Oh I was hoping this was the month you were pregnant"- don't we all!!! She can't find anything wrong with me. I was trying to get in and have a hsg and found out we have to pay out of pocket for it. No way can we afford that right now. Pity party for me. Hoping for a brighter weekend- the SIL is getting married on Saturday and there will be massive amounts of Italian relatives to visit with. Love, hugs and hope!
P.S. Should ovulate this weekend lets hope the excitement of the wedding makes a baby!

Me with a blog- never thought this would happen!

2009-08-12T19:24:00.001-07:00

This is my very first blog post. I never in a million years thought I would start a blog. I have to admit I even made fun of people that had them. Over the last couple months I have found such great comfort in reading blogs going through the same issues my hubby and I are facing- INFERTILITY! Why the all caps you might think? This is how I see it and hear it- all in caps, screaming "No baby for you!" Today I had a phone call with my OBGYN and it has been decided she can no longer help us- she specifically said, "I don't know what else I can do for you." That is a hard thing to hear. I am waiting to hear back about referrals to see an infertility doctor now. I just have to say a little sick of all the waiting. Waiting for doctors appts, waiting for referrals, waiting for test results, waiting for my period(Please don't come again this month, I promise to miss you really bad!), waiting for our baby to finally be ready to join our very ready family. Enough for now- sorry for the whining to the one person that might read this. Hugs and love for now!